It’s been a while since I last wrote to you—about five months, to be specific.
To be honest, I have been struggling with imposter syndrome when it comes to starting this page. Was this the right decision? Am I truly ready? Is there even such a thing as feeling 100% ready? I’ve spent countless hours typing out different topics in my Notion app, overanalysing my work, and second-guessing myself. After my so-called “one-hit wonder,” I found myself in a rut—caught in fear, indecision, and pure procrastination.
To be completely transparent, I’m not sure if I’ve truly found my voice. Am I equipped to write about this journey? Is my vocabulary and writing style up to par? Will I fail and mislead you when speaking about the ways of the Kingdom?
For months, I’ve dabbled in different topics I wanted to share with you—lessons from Egypt, forgiveness, reconciliation—only to start when inspired, stop midway, and never return until the spark of creativity had faded.
Remembering My Why
A while ago, during a season of indescribable pain, I felt the call to start this blog. As a friend ministered on stage, the idea struck me—to write letters to those who feel stained, beyond redemption, or too far gone because of their past mistakes. To those covered in shame, trapped in cycles of sin, yet yearning for a relationship with Christ.
This is for you—the ones who need to know that no matter what you have done, you are deeply loved by God. You have not been forgotten.
The truth is, I am also on this journey. This walk of faith isn’t built in a day (or a single post). It comes with challenges, doubts, and moments of weakness. But can I encourage others in their walk if I am hesitant in my own? Is there such a thing as being “not good enough” to do what God has called us to do? Should I suppress my struggles while uplifting you in yours?
My pastor once said: “If you don’t make mistakes you’re not testing your faith, and if you don’t test out your faith, you won’t grow. It’s a muscle.”
And so with this, I have made my decision. As we navigate the hurdles of running this race of faith, I will find my voice alongside you, learning and growing through every step.
A Word of Encouragement
This post isn’t about forgiveness, reconciliation, or Egypt. In fact, I’ve written this in just a few hours, with breaks in between. But what I do hope to accomplish with this is to encourage you.
Whatever you are being called to do—whether it’s leaving a job, starting a business, or giving your relationship with God another chance—do not wait for perfection. Do not wait for the perfect mood or the right time. As Ecclesiastes 11:4 says, “Whoever watches the wind will not plant; whoever looks at the clouds will not reap.” And in 2 Corinthians 12:9, we are reminded that God’s grace is sufficient for us, and His power is made perfect in our weakness.
Although there is such thing as wrong timing, do not wait for perfect timing. Growth comes through action. Can one become a better writer without practice? Can one grow in faith without taking steps toward it?
So, here’s my encouragement to you: Start now. Take the first step, no matter how uncertain or unprepared you feel. Trust that in your obedience, you will find clarity, growth, and purpose. You are not too far gone. You are seen, known, and deeply loved.
And so, we walk this journey together.